my story
Destination: Earth
From my teenage years, I've felt that I was born into a pivotal moment in history—a time when humanity would finally confront the fundamental questions that have long been considered unanswerable: Who are we? Where do we come from? Does God exist
As a teenager, I became painfully aware of the stark contrast between the world as it is and a remembrance of something greater, a distant echo from another dimension, shaped by harmony and interconnectedness. This awareness brought with it an overwhelming sense of alienation, loneliness, and disillusionment. Even as a child, it felt as if I were an observer stranded on an unfamiliar planet, sending “dispatches” to the Universe, trying to describe the painful experience of being human, and how startlingly “real” this reality felt, even if, in the grand scheme of things, it were an illusion.
I couldn’t comprehend violence, suffering, competition, nor the absence of Love, and this led me to the brink of despair as a teenager. I longed to return “home.” The human experience was overwhelming, yet I felt an inner calling, a burning desire to find the answers and a way to shift this reality for myself and others, which I believed was possible.
From that moment, I moved away from purely intellectual seeking and turned toward the subtler realms
— into the ineffable.
Through sound therapy and bioenergy healing, I was able to regain control over my depression. I met my spiritual teachers, healers, and channelers, and through spiritual practice (meditation, prayer) alongside studying neuroscience, I learned of the world of mental “programs,” patterns, and the non-physical aspects of consciousness. This allowed me to gather and connect dots about quantum consciousness, informational medicine, and the interconnectedness of all things.
In the 80s and 90s, information about consciousness and cosmology was scarce. I sought knowledge and practices in the Bible and Zen traditions, pouring myself into the study of art and philosophy at university. My focus was primarily intellectual, as I immersed myself in Nietzsche, Beckett, and existentialism, waking early to study, and missing the social life of a student. I was exploring psychology and consciousness studies in a desperate attempt to master and free the mind, but all I found was despair, right alongside Beckett, whose work I was studying for my doctoral thesis.
I was on a doctoral scholarship at one of the world’s most renowned universities, Oxford, yet life felt utterly meaningless. A doctor diagnosed me with endogenous depression, genetically predisposed. But then, he said something that radically altered my perspective: he advised me to change my worldview. This stunned me completely. How could I change my “worldview”? I thought I was on the verge of uncovering the Truth. So, did Shestov and the existentialists have it wrong, taking the affairs of this world so seriously?
I came to understand that humanity is undergoing a profound transformation, an Awakening to a deeper understanding of who we truly are and the potential we hold as multidimensional beings. I feel myself a part of this process, and even if I don’t fully grasp all the events unfolding, I have managed to regain a sense of connection, belonging, and trust in the Universe. Deepening my intuition and consciously directing my thoughts in alignment with my intentions is becoming an ever-stronger habit.
beyond the mind
waiting for Godo...
crystal time-wave
Right before our very eyes, a transformation is taking place, where a history shaped by violence and fear is giving way to peaceful coexistence and the co-creation of reality.
Some are already living in this new PARADIGM OF FREEDOM. How quickly it becomes the collective experience of all humanity is up to us.